Leah Q. Adult-in-Training

Dear _________,             I still remember the first time I saw you, it wasn’t even in person, it was just a photo. I remember clearly because you caught my eye, my friend told me you guys were close, translation “it’ll never happen without ending our friendship.” For me that was the beginning of an ongoing test to stay away from you.             I knew my friendship with her was more important to me than my attraction to you so I distracted myself. I distracted myself by making you guys happy together. I became your friend; I wanted the best for you and for her. I created a bigger problem for myself because as I got to know you I realized the attraction I had wasn’t just physical, I became attracted to your sense of humor, and ironically enough to the way your cared for my best friend.             She broke your heart, I remember because it was the first time I felt more loyalty to you than to her. I wanted so badly to fix everything but girl code said I couldn’t be friends w

To my Ex-Best Friend with love,           We met a long time ago, our friendship blossomed overnight, I should have realized then it wasn’t real. The way you attached yourself to people, it should have been a sign to me. A sign of disloyalty, a sign that bonds to you were meant to be broken, that friendships to you weren’t meant to last. What you refer to as friendship as, “besties” is nothing more then a sham. In actuality it was just a label to suit your current needs. It took many months and plenty of realizations to come to the truth of it all; the only person you ever cared about was yourself.             Many people saw it before I did, I believed everything you said, and the signs I saw I chose to ignore because even though you treated your old friends like that we couldn’t possibly be a track on the same old record you kept playing.   As our friendship walked itself into the grave, I went through the five stages of grief, after denial was anger. I was