Diamonds Are a Girl's Most Sparkliest Best Friend

Love it’s an emotion that has so many different facets it’s impossible to explain every possible definition and explanation for its existence. I’ve talked about the kind of love that turns into marriage, the kind that turns into forever but what about all the other kinds? What do they mean? I suppose they're different for every person, obviously the kind of love you have for your Nana isn't reminiscent of the kind you have for your friends, or your "more than a friend." Everything's different, everything has a different sort of evolution, or path that follows different types of turns and directions. 

Just like the kinds I have for my best friends. I'm one of those people with multiple best friends I don't know if it's because I have multiple personality disorder and each best friend is applicable to each mood or, if I just love a lot... In retrospect it's probably a mixture of both. 

I have that one best friend I've known forever, Kim and I literally have grown up together. We fight like sisters that love and hate each other in equal parts. It's a volatile relationship that one, like one of those fiery elements that spontaneously combust upon contact with the air but within the explosion of fire and anger is an underlying sense of love that is overwhelming. I think both of us have had times where we thought we couldn't get past an issue but then when we try to live with that decision we realize that losing one another would be like letting go of all the memories that make up our childhood. We both have tempers, some a little hotter then others, we're both not very good at saying how we feel, and most of all we're both an overdramatic pack of asswipes when we get hurt. It's a complicated relationship but one that's entirely based on love...and laughing...a lot.

Then there's my other best friend Lotsy, that kid, sitting here writing about her makes me smile because she is just my girl. She's helped me through some of the hardest times of my life, we are literally the same person born into two different families that found each other through sheer luck. We can do everything or, nothing and still have the same amount of fun and laugh until our faces hurt. Her family knows me so well that when I walk in now I really don't think they're even surprised to see me, same goes for her in my house. The only thing that our relationship is bad for is our wallets because Lord knows we both have shopping addictions that should be studied. We have the same viewpoints and goals, we're good at the same things, and we tell each other everything, she is one of my best friends. 

Emily, also one of my childhood friendships but one that didn't really develop until later in life. When we were younger Emily was the crybaby and I was the asshole, that is probably still true about me but Emily has definitely matured. I feel very protective of Emily, she's been through a lot in her life. She's one of those people you just have to admire because even with everything she's experienced she's going somewhere, somewhere amazing and bright. When we were kids there were some people who made her feel like she wasn't worthy of love, they made her feel like she wasn't accepted, watching her go through that made me angry and the anger I have for those people is well-known. I think I've made it my job to be there for Emily, when she needs someone to vent to I'm there and the same goes for me. We're there for each other, always. I'm there to remind her that she's beautiful and amazing and her, she's there to remind me that even though a lot of the time I'm a jerk to people I do have a heart.

Now comes Emaleigh, Em, I'm trying to compose myself while writing this because I'm in a public place. Emaleigh Dawn Rivell is my best friend, she will always be my best friend even though she's not here anymore. She was one of those people, she was so different from me but she was so similar to me it was scary. We went through the same things, we had the same interests. Emaleigh was one of those people you meet in your life that you will remember forever. She had a love for life that can't ever be compared. She wanted to leave a mark, she wanted to be remembered, she wanted to accomplish things, she wanted to help people. Emaleigh went beyond I think what she ever expected. She touched so many people, in so many different ways and I will never forget her. Most of all I will never stop missing her even though she's not here anymore, she left a group of friends that I can see myself growing old with. Every time we are all together it's a testament to her, to who she was. 

From these paragraphs I guess I'm trying to explain that friendships are different, each one is unique, the way we choose to live our lives is unique to ourselves. The day you've compartmentalized all the relationships you've ever had is the day you look down on yourself from some LSD induced cloud or maybe you're dead and watching the play by play of your life from heaven's Lifetime channel. It's hard to explain love but the relationships you have with people are important and one is not more important then another it's just different, it means different things.

The diamond reference in my title, like I said love has many facets, just like a diamond. It doesn't matter what light you put it under it's still beautiful, it just looks different from before. And that my friends is the wisdom or, nonsense (whatever you'd like to refer to it as) that I've decided to sprinkle into your lives. Do with it what you will.

           -Leah Q.